I quit- but I wont…

Growing up is hard- and when you are young you dont ever consider what kind of “emotional” person you will be as an adult. You really only consider what career you willl take, what your wedding will be like and how many kids you will pop out. I have been faced with my “what kind of emotional person are you?” faze lately. I am a human that wants to fix EVERYTHING and everyone. I have people in my life that I want to protect and who doesnt? But what happens when you cant. I have lists of issues and pains that I have zero control over and having no control whatsoever has been really trying for me. Ive never thought about giving up until now- is that selfish? Am I completely weak and naive to want out? Or am I a coward to want out because things are getting sticky?

I want to know how many of us give up on something once it gets hard- and I want to know how many of us DONT give up and what on earth is takes to get those particular people to the finish line. In my personal case, im referring to a relationship- but these thoughts could be about virtually anyone and pertain to anything.

I need direction from the humans that dont give up- I pray. I have hope. I do all of the things my heart instantly leans toward. So I dare anyone else to throw something my way. This isnt life or death- but it is. I will never consider myself a quitter- but why do “non quitters” have quiting thoughts?

You’ve got it all wrong.

I am someone who hears a clever quote and wants to lock it away for future use. Either in my own life or someone elses. I read something the other day that made a lot of sense to me, and pushed the “slow down” button on my mind as soon as I read it. Its quotes and advice like this that give me hope for the human race and our ability to truly love no a days. I almost feel like my grandparents generation was the only generation to not be overcome by cell phones disease- cheating and divorce.

“Dear Humans, You’ve got it all wrong. You didnt come here to master unconditional love. That is where you came from and where you will return. You came here to learn personal love. Universal love. Messy love. Sweaty love. Crazy love. Broken love. Whole love. Infused with divinity. Live through the grace of stumbling. Demonstrated through the beauty of.. messing up. Often. You didnt come here to be perfect. You already are. You came here to be gorgeously human. Flawed and Fabulous. And then to rise again into remembering. “

That to me is solid. And in my opinion no human truly thinks this way- caught up in grudges and lies.. always wanting more and never appreiciating anything that is ever done out of love. Divorce is suddenly the way out and never trying to save a relationship is the new normal. Some how everyone stopped listening to eachother and masked it all with vanity and time lines. Its a scary thought.. “LOVE” might actually be completely dead.